An Elective on Perspective
by UMES Junior Brittany Johnson
I Want To See Other People
Am I the only person who doesn’t trust herself? I’ve suppressed the little voice inside of my head that’s filled with respectable suggestions so long that I can hardly identify it. I’m suspicious of myself. I don’t know if I’m giving myself sound advice, or trying to set myself up. I talk myself into bad ideas and talk myself out of good ones. On numerous occasions I have acted as my own adversary. But, how do I fix it? I can’t tell myself that I would like to see other people. I can’t divorce myself. I’m stuck with the monster I created.
You know the popular saying, “I told God to protect me from my enemies, and then I started losing friends”? Well, I asked God to protect me from my enemies, and I started gaining awareness of self. Am I evil? Am I horrible? Of course not. Am I the person I should be right now? Of course not! Sometimes you have to step back and take a long hard look at yourself. During said look you should ask yourself if you’re the person you would want to meet; or would you be the person that you see from afar off and pray to baby, teenage, and adult Jesus that they don’t see you. You have to take yourself seriously in order to be taken seriously. If there’s something that you see yourself as lacking, it’s your job to fix it.
Life is like a box of chocolates? I think not. I’ve gotten some disgusting chocolates, but I still ended up eating them. Maybe that’s just me being a fat girl; but either way, they were still somewhat enjoyable. Life, however, is the total opposite. At this point in life I’d say life is more like a treadmill that you can’t turn off. It’s just you and it. If you keep the pace, you aren’t growing. If you get comfortable with what you’ve done thus far and stop, you start moving backwards. If you gather the courage and tap into your energy reserve to increase the pace, you almost kill yourself trying to keep up. What is my point? Kill yourself trying to keep up. That way you’ve thought yourself special enough to die for. That’s the greatest love story that’s never been told.
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